像达芬奇一样画出密码

深藏于一切绚烂色彩中

时间倒流

如果十年前我坚持认真地学素描  

....

我试图回忆 曾经自己是用什么方式释放

童年的大部分时间 同样是画笔 诠释自己的心情

在课堂 在家里 任何纸张 任何时间 布满了自己的作品 

自己总是画地乐此不疲  嘴里同时还在嘀咕着

 

青春期我用小说 日记 写歌词 抒写心情

但是好象画画更让自己释放 我不是很会说话

画画 一条曲线可以让自己感动 一条直线让自己亢奋

而我却不知道用多少字才能告诉别人 我是某种心情 

至少自己没有更多的释放感

 

从未有过的矛盾感 一种 无法宣泄的 感觉

被困着 没有一种语言可以用

 

如果

如果

如果有如果 就没有我 谁都不能总活在假设中...

2个多月前 充斥着回顾 总结 憧憬

现在 又一次 澎湃 也就隔了2个多月 仿佛事隔一年 又在憧憬 又在感慨 .....有点腻味 有点恶心

 

无论怎么样 还是说明人们始终是喜新厌旧 历史的长河 对于人性的改变总是微乎其微的

重新开始总是令人欣喜的

面对着新年 第二次承诺 第二次许愿 第二次总结 一切又一次新了

网络到处都是新鲜感 鼠标每一次尝试性地点击 每一次怀着憧憬点击刷新 都带来了莫大的新鲜感冲击

 

虽然反反复复, 吃了吐,吐了吃....无非是再给自己找个开心的理由 其实亦是件不错的事情

 

自己向来是对春晚不感冒 可是每每总是会看上两眼 然后看不了30分钟就没了兴趣 大失所望 一样-没有新鲜感

早上 看到了春晚重播 又听到了很多 能把人唱"醉"的歌曲 歌颂来歌颂去的 吃了吐 吐了吃

一个演员一生只演一种角色是多么可怕的事情 又何异于一个歌手年年都在唱一个主题的歌 除了麻木的表情 还能剩下什么? 还能指望什么?

 

春晚很多年了 但是给我的感觉 就像一本再版无数次的旧书 改变渺小的 就像我所谓的人性...

表演 地点的不同 观众的配合方式也就不同

如果你是一个在街上靠胸口碎大石 卖艺为生的艺人 你在街上的表演常常会换来无数叫好声 

在那样的地点 那样的情形 需要观众的叫好声

我直到现在还在纳闷 在正式的大舞台 演播厅里  是否也需要这样的叫好声? 感觉很俗气 有些起哄的感觉 而且有时还会影响演员 演的好好的

台下跟神经病似的叫嚷着:"好~~~"  汗....

导演试图将内容慢慢的高雅化 可是 观众素质也得提高 更令人深思的是 这些叫好声 鼓掌 更多是台下安置好的拖儿 

多么矛盾的组合 不伦不类

 

春晚不可否认是种文化 有一种品牌气质 这点上很多国内名牌企业 还没达到这个高度

他的不变 就是一种商业定位 反正不是定位在我这种人身上 

有时挺有意思的 春晚就像中国足球

 

人们现在对于春晚似乎更是注意在小品相声上 不要忘了 春晚可不是相声小品大赛 而其实真正让人记住的作品又是那么的寥寥无几

还充斥着能把人唱醉的歌 每每能把人唱醉的歌 都是新歌 一首完整的新歌

 

春晚 缺少的是娱乐精神 似笑非笑 痛苦的很

听一首主题歌曲 足以让我一次醉个够

 

每次都搞调查 其实已经没什么意义了

导演一直都是稳的让人打瞌睡 好也不可能好到哪去 差也差不到哪去 四平八稳 

喜欢看的就像爱中国足球一样 再臭依然一样TMD拥有上亿观众 好了 自然是让人 惊讶的 因为最近这么多年 很少得到媒体暧昧的表扬

导演永远是满意的 内容永远是醉人的 

对于春节 我还剩下什么? 

如果 几年前是无聊 再几年前是兴奋 前2年是无奈 去年是新鲜

那么今年是 淡淡的麻木和挥之不去的伤感

 

下午 一个人走在回家的路上 看着天

想着地球另一边

给了另一边很多的假设

而其实 地球另一边  ...

 

能做的不多 只能自己继续好好过活

向往常一样 隔几个月的 抑郁情绪又来了 莫名就会想找个方式发泄

我通常 会选择看电影

今天看的是 MY SISSY GIRL 又看了一遍 还是 终于 让自己得逞 被感动了

上一次看是 初三中考完的那天晚上 和哥哥 大姐 二姐 弟弟 

如今 已经很少经常一起了

即使去年那个暑假 各个也都是匆匆而过

 

重复看一部电影 就是在找曾经的感觉 那一段时间的人和事

倒是更少注意电影了 明明知道的结局 仍然会让自己心灵触动

用一种方式 倒出那段回忆 释放自己的情绪

 

年前的时间 人人都有旺盛的写作欲望

感慨地 悲伤地 幸喜地 

更多的是回忆 不多的是感激

 

忽然 发现为什么BLOG现在这么流行用诗的格式写流水帐了 

因为比较方便读者阅读 不知道为什么最近写东西 少了调侃 少了自由的灵感~~　

 

讨厌这种浮夸的格式　

然而　自己却还在不停到膨胀　 

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春节　一种尴尬的感觉

 

first, show u guys a piece of news http://msn.ynet.com/view.jsp?oid=189561  

in order to attract people to learn and know more Chinese, there are some Chinese articles or sth in The Times during several days. some of them are even in the headlines.

actually it's really shocking but it is also understandable. as we know, investing China is investing future.

 

however, western world wonder that whether China can continue that rapidly GDP increasing with 8% per year. what they believe is from they have developed. such as, socialism, capitalism, etc. they believe capitalism brings them wealth. that's true. we can see and really feel it. while on the other hand, many countries have changed into capitalism from socialism including Bulgaria, Romania and so on. the reason is simple that they find it is hard to develop.

 

then the problem comes, what is the future of China? cos as above illustrated China should go to the same track like other socialism countries but it didn't. then the new view comes out, that is, "China crash " instead of "China threat".

when people talk about China, they will say it is a state-directed economy and moving to market economy like Hongkong. however, the biggest puzzled point is now in China  there is still one party controling the state BUT they are trying to do market economy which relates to democracy or sth BS. if we talk about democracy, surely people will never think a country controled by communists.

 

without doubtness, still you can not say there is so-called democracy in China. actually, it is useless at present. if people can't alive, it 's no use to talk about that democracy. who care? if we can earn money, anyone can control. it's just like a company. if CEO can do a good job, directors will fully support and the boss will also keep on buying some football clubs. now Chinese is doing sth called invention. we are inventing some new model - China Mode, a mode with chinese feature. in other words, we can say that "Be Yourself" then you'll get succeed. the situations are different and solutions also vary.

 

this week, in IB, Mr Verhoeff said now in the world there are three civilizations. one of these is Chinese Culture!!!  what i want to say is if you are Chinese, Be Chinese! not Amrecan, not British, not Dutch... we should keep our culture and integrate other cultures. however, more and more young people have gradually lost and believed what the western believes. Protect Culture is Protect Future of China.

 

some days ago, one CEO from foreign company said in China there is NO BRAND! certainly, people argued that come on, man, don't u see Lenovo, Haier, TCL, SINA, etc. in this CEO's view, those only can be called TM. as we know, if we want to build a brand, we need to have brand strategy. in my view, based on a concept, we have to build a company culture.

 

personally i totally agree this point that no brand in China. what is brand? recently in IMM class, there is a kind of statement or sth. e.g if we say KFC, 10 years before we have a overview that it is from USA and fast food, etc. however, now in China if we say KFC, we will immediatelly react that this is recently a more and more Chinese-Western fast food. we have a different of view and image of this comapny. if we take PepsiCo, funny commercials with famous football players will show in our minds. it is a weapon or tool for them to differ from Cock Cola. generally, it is eay to get an image if we mention one multinational company. however, if we talk about Lenovo, what can we remember? they simply think that if they can sign some big star showing in their advertisments. that's it? ! if we go back to see their financial part, we have to admit that they do a nice job but in marketing, there is still no diference between other small firms in China. they should do more on build a brand culture........  China still need more marketing experience.

 

其实按照习惯，我应该用中文写的．何况文章主题还是挺民族的，但是现在似乎很多人都更中意用英文写ＢＬＯＧ，看上去很小资，很深奥

可以用英文写　但是不是我们所看到的那样　

总得来讲　狗屁不是

文化也是一样．．．．．．．

或许５年后　外国人在ＢＬＯＧ写中文也是件很小资而又惬意的事情．．．．

 

下雪了 有点新鲜感 只是断断续续

 

于是乎 我在阳台写下自己的名字 不知道会被什么带走...